Tuesday, February 17, 2009

What next...

It's been 42 days since my employment status changed. I'd love to say that I'm ok with it but that would be a lie. The truth of the matter is I'm in a state of limbo and this has brought on many conflicting emotions. I'm so used to earning a paycheck and my day being defined by an office schedule. It's not easy defining it myself. Or should I say, allowing God to define it. I thought I'd be able to just pick myself up, dust myself off and then go on about the business of applying for jobs and getting a great offer. That's not how it has worked out though. And as much as I didn't want to see this before, I am starting to understand that if God wanted me working back in an office somewhere it would've happened already. I'm not saying that He doesn't have that in the future somewhere. Just not yet. He has a plan. I know this. I just don't know what the plan is. Well, maybe I partially know. There is so much to do around this house. So much "stuff" in the closets, drawers, garage, etc. And there are people to tend to. We move through each day, or at least I do, inundated and busy without much time for ourselves or our families, let alone our Father. We stuff things away and promise we'll get to it later; the bible study lesson, the note to your friend at church who lost her husband, the visit with the neighbor who lost his wife, the friend you promised to have lunch with, etc. The truth is we make time for what is important to us. Ouch!!! But it's the truth. I've done it way too often. And I believe that God is telling me it's time to refocus.

I would be lying if I said that our financial situation hasn't crossed my mind (or taken up residence there). But God has reminded me many times this week to store up treasures in heaven where moth and rust do not destroy, nor where thieves break in and steal. He has reminded me that He is our provider.

When/if God wants me back to work in the traditional sense it'll happen. For now I am going to concentrate on planting some daisies...

1 comment:

  1. Can't wait to see those daisies (figurative and otherwise), Kelly.